It's come to that time where my mind is in overdrive with everything just kicking me at once.
I don't know whether I've made the right or wrong decision, even though I still have time to change it, I feel that whichever one I make, I'll be making the wrong one for so many different reasons.
Right now you're probably reading this thinking what are you going on about Crowley!?
Well, it's University and my mind just won't stop with the thinking, the worry about it or, not it.
With friends and close acquaintances all either going to uni or staying in Salisbury it's been crossing my mind, what do I need to do for myself and honestly, I have no idea. I've been talking with my family and my mind is more leaning towards I don't want to, more for the fact of the massive debt after it, even though I know it shouldn't be a big worry with everything being sorted from there, but it still crosses my mind as well as all I'm leaving behind and not to see that often again.
At the same time my mind is buzzing of adventure and the new experiences I would get through this, including the obvious of at some point, hopefully adding to the career aspect of it. Where I'm thinking of, which is BIMM in Bristol I have a friend already there, someone I know who would look after me, or help if I really needed it.
This is always going to cross my mind, both of them whether I decide to or not.
Whatever happens, a year off is my first port of call, getting a job and getting myself into the real world before making a decision that could shape my life for good or bad, going or not, if I'm happy with no regrets, that's all that matters to me, besides, I can always go in visits to annoy my friend.
If you really read all that, I thank you, writing blogs has been on and off for me, some things just don't need it, but at the same time, it can be fun getting things out of my head, helping me relax.
