Decisions - My mind and how I feel.

It's come to that time where my mind is in overdrive with everything just kicking me at once.
I don't know whether I've made the right or wrong decision, even though I still have time to change it, I feel that whichever one I make, I'll be making the wrong one for so many different reasons.

Right now you're probably reading this thinking what are you going on about Crowley!?
Well, it's University and my mind just won't stop with the thinking, the worry about it or, not it.

With friends and close acquaintances all either going to uni or staying in Salisbury it's been crossing my mind, what do I need to do for myself and honestly, I have no idea. I've been talking with my family and my mind is more leaning towards I don't want to, more for the fact of the massive debt after it, even though I know it shouldn't be a big worry with everything being sorted from there, but it still crosses my mind as well as all I'm leaving behind and not to see that often again.

At the same time my mind is buzzing of adventure and the new experiences I would get through this, including the obvious of at some point, hopefully adding to the career aspect of it. Where I'm thinking of, which is BIMM in Bristol I have a friend already there, someone I know who would look after me, or help if I really needed it.
This is always going to cross my mind, both of them whether I decide to or not.

Whatever happens, a year off is my first port of call, getting a job and getting myself into the real world before making a decision that could shape my life for good or bad, going or not, if I'm happy with no regrets, that's all that matters to me, besides, I can always go in visits to annoy my friend.

 If you really read all that, I thank you, writing blogs has been on and off for me, some things just don't need it, but at the same time, it can be fun getting things out of my head, helping me relax.

Writing stint

Hello all, 

 

 One of the things I said I'd do at some points is speak about things more important to myself, my view on life and the things around it. The normal blog sort of thing really then and I know that the subject I'm thinking about will have been talked about time and time again in good ways and bad ways.

 The only problem I'm having right now is finding the words to say it right, I know what I want to say, but actually typing it down is another thing, but once we get there I think I'll be fine.

We shall see!

Anyway, a quick catch up since my last blog post I guess!

From the last time I said anything here I've been mostly into the musical side of my life, going into college and playing around at home with sounds and also a gig at a nice venue in the city I live in.

The gig was spectacular, it was a lot of fun playing the music I love with the friends I really couldn't do it without. The great thing about it was that everyone there was friendly with each other, as most of us would have played together at some point or in my case, some of us are on the same college course, making supporting each other a lot easier.

All the bands there were great, mostly with a rock orientated night with each band putting their own spin on the idea of it, nothing bad about sounding like others, but putting your own spin on things can never go wrong, right?

Pretty much all for now, 

 Until the next speech, see you around!

First post

Hello all,

I thought with this I'd just introduce myself.
I'm Matt another teenager who thought it'd be a good idea to get a blog, we'll see how that goes.
I'm a lover of music, all kinds, I'll happily give anything a listen, but my love really lies in progressive rock.
Why? I don't know, just the bands I've found either by self exploring or from friends have stayed with me. The like of King Crimson and Porcupine Tree, Opeth and Anathema, the list really could go on.
I'm currently studying music at college which I will always enjoy, all the aspects we get to cover are great, the performing, the business, the technology, how could I not be interested?

I'll probably say more about myself in coming posts, but for now I think that's all that's needed.
In this blog I'll talk about whatever feels right. Be it about my personal life (or soon not so personal), college life, about music, whatever!

Anyway, I know this hasn't been the most entertaining first post, but it's just an overview of what's to come!

Until the next small speech, I bid you a good day!